Friday, 29 April 2016

whatever you're facing ...

Even if you can't imagine you're ever going to find your way out. Even when you're drowning in your doubt. Just look beyond the clouds. 

Lift up your eyes and see...

The sun is rising 

Britt Nicole 

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With love for your weekend 

Wednesday, 27 April 2016

Fear and me

We all know what it feels like to be afraid. Fear is such an overpowering emotion which has a great influence on how we live our lives, make choices and decisions and even how we communicate and conduct ourselves with others!

It is designed to keep us out of harms way...but sometimes this self protection mode goes into overdrive and blurs the lines of real danger versus imagined danger. Our minds can get so stuck at moments that we can lose ourselves in the immense fears whirling around our minds, until our world becomes very small.

Smaller world....less to hurt us or our loved ones!

A couple of days ago...I thought everything in my little comfort zone, my small world -  was safe. My numerous double checks were complete, my prayers said...all was well.

And then, out of the blue, one of my worst fears happened. My world crumbled inwards. I lost someone very, very special to me. And all of my fears became so suddenly my reality. I could not and was not prepared. But amazingly, I got through that dreadful day....I don't know how...but I did.

Accepting that no amount of planning and controlling is going to stop your fears from coming true, but not living your life desperately afraid that they will a hard lesson for one such as me. In all honesty, for anyone.

At present, I have to train my mind to manage the fears within. Rather than live with the fear that they will come true and everything will fall to pieces.

Life is full of uncertainties - but recovering after our world has imploded is possible - and although the sky may fall in for a little while, it will always brighten up again and our broken hearts mend. We regain our control - with an assured feeling inside that we can indeed cope when something tremendous happens that rocks our world and casts us out to sea.

Life has a wonderful way of putting things back to together again in the face of tragedy. All we can really do is enjoy and cherish each day. Change things if we are not happy. Keep safe within reason. And create memories that give us something to live and fight for.

The more control we strive for, the less joy and happiness we feel and life becomes a hardship focused on preserving and survival - rather than making the most of every moment and feeling the sheer wonder that is ' life ' 

I don't know if I'll be able to surrender all of my control overnight, but I do now know this ...

'Louisa May Alcott' 


I often think we can't really blame our fear fueled instincts for trying to intervene and protect us the way it does, especially when there is so much to quite naturally be fearful of in everyday life.
But if our fear is an irrational one, then we can try to work at overcoming it and making sense of it. When it is just our conscience speaking up declaring 'that's not safe' or even simply 'that's not right for me,'  then it's time to listen.

I hope as I get better at sailing my ship, I allow my fear a break from it's over protection and prove to myself that I can and will be okay with what ever life brings my way.

With love 

Sunday, 24 April 2016

Daydreams and beautiful things x


Daydreaming can create a wonderful opportunity for 'Mindful Escapism' during the day when your spirits may feel a little low.

Retreating to a place in your mind where you are envisaging living out those quiet ideals you hold so dear, can actually be a real energy boost, and often it can highlight what is lacking in life, and what matters the most to you. Most poignantly, it can indicate very succinctly what we must change to get where we want to be. 

Although I think that happiness is a state of mind, I also agree that there are external things which can greatly prevent us from feeling happy and true to ourselves. It works both ways.

So ...

if low spirits are chipping away at your confidence and self belief -  find just a few moments to yourself...and let your imagination guide you. Let it gently take you by the hand, and pull you into the mindful world of daydreaming. You will probably unearth some feelings and thoughts that transport you to a place where you are happy, safe and content, where things are going well and just for a short time, nothing can cause you any trouble.

Retreat here whenever you need, and allow it to be the place you visit for reflection, peace and advice. Your little escape will help you to reconnect with your goals and hopeful achievements...and may offer you a few clues of just how to get where you want to be. Enjoy the journey into your imagination.

Ps. I wrote this the day my beautiful pony was taken from me. Yet...its sentiment is as true now as it was when I typed thinking all was well in my world. 

I shall dive into my imagination and I know I shall see that my girl is still with me. I just have to close my eyes and enter my thoughts...and there she is... alive within our treasured memories together.


With love

Saturday, 23 April 2016

Friday, 22 April 2016

Good night my angel

This time yesterday, your head lay in my lap, your eyes glazed with fear and pain, and softly that pain was taken away and I held you for as long as time would allow. 

My beautiful girl - what will I do without you. 

Good Night My Angel. I cannot believe I can no longer wrap my arms around you neck and whisper into your golden mane. All I know right that you will never leave my heart. 


1991 -  21st/4/2016  

There you'll be

Tuesday, 19 April 2016

Finding your special place

This evening I am surrounded by the munching of soft noses tucking into hay heaps, upon the paddocks sprouting grass-covered ground.

After a day of worry sitting heavily on my shoulders, to come down to the meadow with my beautiful herd of ponies happily awaiting my arrival...there is simply nothing quite like it.

This is our second year here.  And it feels as though it was meant for us somehow. Tucked away overlooking the river, it's a small place of peace in a frantic world...and having the time to enjoy it is the best feeling to over ride any anxieties from the day.

I best go as I have been nudged into treat giving
by three expectant faces.

I hope you can find a place of peace wherever you may be ....

With love

Sunday, 17 April 2016

Ease the Sunday eve blues

Create a life you love. One that you don't need a holiday from. A life that matters to you and makes you happy....

It is true when they say ' life isn't a rehearsal '

But even a live show can pull the curtain down and re set, before beginning again.


Your path awaits...

Sunny Spring Evenings

Meadow life 

Thursday, 14 April 2016

lavenders blue ...

The beautiful lavender bluebells of spring in the woodland. All that can be heard is the afternoon bird chorus, as the sunlight slips through the tree branches. There is magic here. I can feel it. And looking around at the ramblers, dog walkers and horse riders, I think they feel it too.

'Where ever you go...go with all your heart'
Author unknown

Tuesday, 12 April 2016

Live Simply and hold on to what matters


My little blogging space here has experienced it's second make over.
It feels more me now somehow? It guess it takes a while when you're learning the ropes to have the courage to put your stamp on something.

~ Live Simply ~ 
the motto for the day

Writing every day, even if it is just for myself, is proving to be the best chance I have taken in such a long while. 

I am so glad I was able to 'Keep Calm and Start Writing' and reach out to something that encourages me in so many ways.

It doesn't matter where it goes, I am just enjoying the journey.


With Love 

Look up Xx

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Sunday, 10 April 2016

My writing companion

It's amazing how animals know when you may need the comfort of their presence beside you. I wonder if they seek us out, when they need comfort or simply our company too? I think so very much...having a life with animals is a special one.


Her name is Angel 

Thursday, 7 April 2016

Spring time photo diary of a country girl ~

Just little snippets of my country life down at the Meadow,  by the river where my ponies reside.

It's our second year here. And it has become home.

Norman & Beatrix 
The meadow Ducks  - now pets it seems! 

Dry Welly boots in spring time!

My little Horses soft ears 

Our black beauty

My meadow

Down in the water meadow
Carrots please!

My beautiful old girl

Horses leave hoof prints on your heart 


It's a little daunting to share who you are ... but I realised it's a lovely way to document my life's loves and joys, thoughts and musings, ideas and dreams. No need to be scared about that.

: ) 


Tuesday, 5 April 2016

Learning to let go ...

Letting go is never an easy process ... yet there are moments in our lives when we have to simply breathe, accept and let go. And then we must wait. We must hang on tight and wait for the rain to stop, the clouds to pass and soon, sometime very soon, the sun will come out once more.

Letting go comes in many shapes and forms, but the letting go that I am sharing here, is an emotional releasing ... an emotional switch and a letting go infused with acceptance and relief.

You see, I am having to let go of the ideal that I am okay, when deep down, I do not feel okay.
 I will be....but just now I am truly not. I guess it's called living with a worrisome mind and an anxious heart.

I realised though, that I seem to have forgotten that I should be surrendering to rest, calming activities and 'easy does it' moments just now ... 

But our harshest critics seem to be ourselves and we fight for control so as to silence the voice that says 'why aren't you doing that'  ... 'you should be doing this' ...  ' what's the matter with you' 
If we have a self doubt, or fear, our internal chatter boxes speak up about it!

 Absorbed by every crushing criticism, cruel remark, doubting thought....the chatter box feeds off our hurts and creates big scary monsters from these painful times.  

I wonder why we believe the cold, unkind words of others so readily, yet fail to take compliments as the truth?

 Why do we think unkindness is the reality, yet kindness is just someone being good-natured?

So ... I must dear blog world....let go.
I need to let go of feeling like a bad person for saying 'I cannot do this right now'
I need to let go of believing unkind words and trust the loving ones my wonderful family and close friends offer. I must breathe, accept and let go, that right now my mind isn't working properly, and this time I have been given to heal must be used for exactly that. Healing.  Mending.  Fixing. Letting go. 

No need for planning and controlling just now. I must be. Just be. And trust that in letting go, I am setting myself free and from there things will be okay. I will find my way, and everything will make sense and life will feel less overwhelming.

Breathe. Accept. Take each day as it comes, allowing myself the chance to wholeheartedly heal and recuperate. Keep the faith. Cherish what matters. And the rest will fall into place. 


If you are struggling with anything - I would like to say be kind to yourself and please know I am thinking of you and wishing you well with all of my heart. Everything will be alright....I promise.


~ With Love ~ 

Happiness/Unhappiness ?

'It's not about waiting for the storm to pass. 
It's about learning to dance in the rain.'  
Author Unknown


Make Happy Memories Each Day


I often wonder to myself why it is that people express to each other so easily, how stressed and tired they are, as if it's a competition of unhappiness. Yet people so readily neglect to speak up about all the good things, and positive moments experienced - as if positivity and happiness are unrealistic, and negativity and unhappiness are simply 'just life ... ' 

These are just quiet musings of mine - but I am trying to speak up more and the keyboard called me to type I thought I would!

I wonder you see, why people work so tirelessly, losing their sparkle and their dreams all to reach the goal of living freely when retired? It fills me with sadness when I hear countless stories of people working so hard to acquire, achieve, get - and yet when the time arrives to enjoy it their bodies, hearts and soul are worn down and out and there is nothing left of them to cherish and make use of what they strived for. Surely this isn't what life should be about? 

I am an advocate for people asking for help when they are troubled or struggling, but I am also an advocate for people knowing that they hold their own power to change things for the better...For our lives are too precious and we break so painfully when wandering from what brings out the light in us. 

I think that unhappiness can actually be a helpful guide, alerting you to make changes and alter your path - it's your body's warning system saying loudly and clearly 
' something isn't right ' 
- I wonder why we all carry on regardless without listening to this signal?

Each day should surely be the dream - living for each day - filling it with something special so that no time is going to waste. 

We must earn our living and provide for ourselves....but we mustn't abandon our love for each day...for if we do not take care of each other and ourselves along the way, I fear we may lose our right to freedom and dream living later on .... 

I write this because, I nearly fell into this trap. 

Existing and not living is soul destroying and after so long I knew I had to take my unhappiness, look at it closely, and examine what I needed to change to make it brighter and stronger and more radiant than ever.

It's a tough one to figure out - but if we could find some courage deep within, dig into it and be a little brave, maybe everyone would feel more at ease sharing their joys and not just their hardships - because they would know they hold the key to fixing what isn't right.

Maybe then, people would feel grateful and not resentful. Energised instead of fatigued. Hopeful instead of hopeless and happy, instead of unhappy.
What do you think? : ) 
With every loving wish sent ....
'It's the journey that matters, not just the destination'
Author Unknown

Friday, 1 April 2016

Thoughtful friday in the meadow ~

' Stories do not always end where their authors intended, 
but there is joy in following wherever they take us.' 
 'Miss Potter'

 Beatrix Potter - Film - 'Miss Potter' 

I chose this quote and imagery today....because in the meadow amongst my ponies, I suddenly noticed a wonderful collection of wildlife had decided to take up residence with us. 

A duck family wandered from corner to corner of the far reaching meadow, pecking at the grass and waddling beside one another, chattering with musical quacks as they walked.

 A couple of pheasants aimlessly scattered themselves by the fallen trees. Rabbits hopped upon the paddock banks, in a safe and peaceful world of their own. In the trees, the robin family sang,  filling the morning sky with a colourful chorus to match the beautiful, sunlit clouds. And the heron looked on from his poised position, upon the river bridge. 

In that moment, I felt just like Beatrix Potter! - surrounded by all these dear creatures, making their homes in my pony's meadow, as Spring welcomes them all after their long winters nap. 

I hold Miss Potter in high esteem, so it felt very fitting indeed to find myself in a position she may have greatly admired and been wholeheartedly inspired by. 

What a nice start to April ... 
and a gentle reminder that I am on the right track and in the right place.


Beatrix Potter - Film - 2006

With Love 

The wedding arch in the meadow today ~ 1st April


Things feel better after a nap ~

 ~ Our very own black beauty ~  naps do fix everything! ~